Just because you are a trainer doesn't mean you can't suffer from an eating disorder. In fact, I know many trainers who have them, between the industry pressures to look the part and the fact that those who like exercise can sometimes take things, well, a little too far.
Eating disorders aren't the only thing I have struggled with as you will hear in this video. I have overcome a LOT in my life in terms of health and fitness, and I am confident I can help you do the same!
The Early Years
I was super-active as a kid, but I always had a "problem" with food, especially sugar and carbs. I would sneak food and binge. It never showed up on the scale, but I felt ashamed about what I was doing with food. I didn't want anyone to know how obsessed I was with it and I preferred to eat alone in my room without anyone else seeing.
During high school, the bingeing increased, and I finally started gaining extra weight from it. I was using food to cope with depresssion, anxiety, and feelings of being inadequate. I developed anorexia because I didn't want others to notice the weight gain and I also wanted to continue to excel in gymnastics - a sport where extra pounds are very noticable.
Can you believe that I thought I was fat?
Once I got to college, my mental and emotional struggles increased. I wasn't able to do gymnastics in college and I was struggling to make friends. I turned to bulimia to cope. My weight plummetted to a clinically unhealthy level, and I was out of control. I was exercising up to 8 hours 7 days a week. I stopped showing up to class and hit my all time low in all ways.
As time went on and I met a few key people who helped me find my self worth, I started becoming a happier person and started finding my place in the world. At that point, I still had an eating disorder but it was slowly improving. I made a pact with myself that I would gain some weight back. I found myself out-of-control eating, and my weight swung into the "overweight" category. I was still bulimic, but I used mostly exercise as a way to "purge" rather than as much vomiting as I had been doing. There were also times when I didn't purge at all, and the weight piled on.
These photos are not from my heaviest, as I would not allow my picture to be taken, then, but they give you an idea of what I looked like when I was battling with binge eating:
I gained 50 lbs. in 2 years due to bingeing.
I always felt bloated and uncomfortable, and food ruled my life.